11/03/11 Raptor Jesus

Oh heavenly king of the Jurassic and Cretaceous and all other periods and times, please bless me this day for this one has a dream. He has applied for a position with a food magazine and desperately hopes that he will be able to go to it.

This being one of my three dream jobs... Would mean the world to me. And I want that chance. So dear Raptor Jesus bless me with the chance to prove myself to myself... and the rest of the world that I am capable of it all.

11/02/11 Zombie

It's kinda how I feel right now. My eyes hurt, my body is rather sore and I've been awake for almost 24 hours now.

It's slowly sinking in that Kyle and I are really not dating anymore. It hurts just a  nudge, but I'm moving on. Part of me stricken with grief for the 8 and half months that I invested in him, gone. Another part of me is relieved. I can explore other options now without fear of offending his highness.

Well it's not like I'm going to become someone different now that I'm me. I'm simply going to take things with a different level of stride shall we put it?

11/01/11 I feel like shit :(

I really do. My head hurts and I seriously think there are bags under my eyes. Which doesn't make sense since I went to bed at the sensible hour of 2 last night. I don't really doubt that my left arm hurts badly because I keep sleeping on it, but the rest of me? Why the fuck is the rest of me in pain? :( Pain sucks?

I don't doubt that what ever I go through is probably affecting more than just my sleep habits at the present. It's probably killing me slowly...