06/28/2013 Posing Thoughts.

Trapped in the bubble, the darkness never knows.

Trapped in the longing, that forever will be shown. Lost is the memory of that which always was.

Forever. Ferver and ever.

As it would. Less than a week. And I'm stressing like a mofo. For various reasons. Not the least being that I have to pack soon. Like seriously get ready to go pack. Well there's also the fact that I have a nice hotel to stay in. And what not.

07/27/2013 Need to Do

There are plenty of things I have to get around to doing. Like living. And you know making sure my cats are ok.

But yeah trips next week and I'm stressing over a few of the smaller details. Like what to bring and what to wear and how to act.

I should also go shopping and get some food for the kittens.

06/26/2013 More Violence Ahead

I sense a wave of dark emotion to come upon various countries soon.

But that's just my negative outlook on most things. 

Internal conflict for instance is causing my head to throb in pain and in doing so, realized I'm about to be late for work again...

6/24/2013 Makeup Sleep.

Well... This one passed the fuck out today.

Don't know why, and couldn't tell you why.

Well probably because I had a high fat diet and have been pulling times with only 5 hours of sleep for the last two nights and my body finally decided it didn't want to take it anymore. Thus causing the rest of me to more or less collapse from exhaustion. Exciting hmmm?

I'll be traveling again soon. And I dreamed of traveling. I think I woke up around 5 ish. Looked at my clock and decided I could afford another few hours of sleep and in all reality I can/could have.

But yes. I'm going to go freshen up now.

06/23/2013 Moon Moon

Yes. It was a large full moon.

And no I didn't enjoy it.

I should do a study on these sorta things. But from what I was able to find so far, from various months of study; nights with full moons are that much more likely to have chains of accidents. Like specific varieties that don't make much sense.

17 deer claims in the same night for instance. Or the 5 V1 was parked and unoccupied and hit outside of PH's home. Stuff like that.

Yeah. Damned forces of nature.

Officially done spending money for a bit of time as I have stocked up on everything including stuff I obviously don't need (lasagna) and stuff I really do need (cat food). Kitts are tolerating the new cat food so I suppose it's ok to switch it up on them. That or they're not particularly picky as my old kitten was.

06/22/2013 Fish and Chips

Enjoyed some of those today. Beer-battered cod, wedge cut fries and tartar sauce.

Contemplating taking a night off. But I have a feeling I'll talk myself out of it in a moment.

I tried.

06/21/2013 Just a bit

Just a light amount of alcohol. Nothing more than maybe 10 proof.

Enough to make me wonder if it's bad for my health but not so much that I give a damn.

And the results of my experiment have concluded that I don't really give a damn about being tipsy.

It honestly feels nice to be a little bit loose.

06/20/2013 Cat in one's Lap

My random use of capital letters is a bother to some people.

It shouldn't be a bother honestly as I'm not nearly crazy enough for you all to care.

Today is my Friday.

And of course Fridays are lovely. They sit as they are and I'm able to enjoy them.

And of course by Friday I mean that today is my end of the week. Currently it is my Saturday morning. I have a mild unexplainable headache and I'm about to make some noms (I haven't eaten all day. Or had any water for that matter).

It's chilly in my room and I'm able to just be myself as I choose to.

Kitten 1 and Kitten 2 are getting along and choose opposite parts of my bed to sleep on.

It is in that regards that I am happy to say they aren't killing each other. (Which is of course to say that they're being lovely little bastards and I love them both.

06/19/2013 Belated Sleep.

What is belated sleep?

'tis the quality of wanting to rest but not being able to because resting is out of reach :/

It's another one of those days when I should be sleeping but for whatever reason (AC got turned off for today's reason) I am no longer sleeping. It's fucking hot in my room :/


But yes. 3DS has wifi capabilities so I'm letting it do some background software updates. Other than that, it'll be a nice night.

06/18/2013 Animal Crossing.

I got a copy of New Leaf... This game is addicting :/

06/17/2013 A Corruption

I dreamed I had visited a Dark and Twisted Jurassic Park. Something out of nightmare if there ever could be such a thing.

And now I can't help but wonder, was it so much a dream or a vision of what was beyond the mists?

That is a good question.

06/16/2013 Sunday

3 Days till Futurama comes back!!!!!

Yes I'm excited. I really enjoy the series :)

06/15/2013 Start of a New Week

My week starts on Saturday nights. Work week that is.

And at the moment I'm awaiting the hot water to warm up so I can enjoy a nice hot shower before getting dressed and rushing off to work again.

And with that hot shower I can be deep and use my 10-15 minutes of solitude to free my mind of Sha influences. Hm... I should use that term more often. The Sha being manifestations of negative emotions such as doubt, anger, despair, fear, etc.

The emotional burden of their manifestation proves beyond a reasonable doubt that I have something worth doing. Namely: Seek Clarity.

Also need to go shopping in the morning. I'm out of cat litter again :/

06/14/2013 The Perplexities of the Late Night

I just woke up. And while I have to rub the sleep out of my eyes and there's an acrid flavor lingering on my tongue, I honestly don't fell all that tired. I can't help but wonder as to why exactly.


Could it be that in this time that has since been I  have actually gotten used to working nights again so much that I don't require as much sleep anymore?


Na that's not the case I'm still quite sure I'm forcing myself to some degree.

The kitties are doing well, considering it stormed so hard today. I'll go and get them some more water now.

06/13/2013 Sleep and OT

OT for this instance can be defined as Over Time.

As in the 6 extra hours this week that I've worked thus far. Which is of course 6 hours more than I was planning to work. And probably several hours less than i will end up working this week.

Ugh Soooo tired. I napped for like 2 hours after I came home and then punished myself with another 8 hours of awake. Granted I don't work tonight (god send imho).

To that respect I suppose I asked for this, and I am only getting what I asked for.

06/12/2013 Odd Dreams

My dreams have never had any real level of stability as the word would go.

In some processes, I can't even fathom why or how my mind would generate such an idea. 

I suppose then that it's only natural that sooner or later I'd have one with me eating pieces of circuitry. 

Yes. I seriously dreamed of munching on the green circuit board. Eating technology? Eating electronics? Is there a deeper meaning in all of this that I'm not yet approaching?

I can only suspect there is more sinister thoughts deep within my mind. 

The mild nausea that creeps into me as I think about it...

Ugh I'm going to go brush my teeth now and hope I don't find any chunks of green now. 

06/11/2013 Off to Work I go.!

Being not so productive.

But that's how it is. My mid-year evaluations are coming up. And as it would stand I'm doing pretty well with them this year. Work with the insurance company has treated me well thus far and I enjoy my status and will be in line for getting a promotion sometime soon :)

Granted I still would like to get move up and a different job or what not else. But that's a story for another blissful/blissless day.

Also kittens. They're pretty and yet oh so demented all in the same package.

Working on various creations still too.

06/09/2013 Dawnblade

An obscure reference that doesn't make much sense for the uninitiated, in this respect it is but a tangible essence of something passive that I've had nothing better to do but mention.

In other news. It's my Tuesday and I will soon be prepping to get my butt to work.

Monday's tomorrow and Hopefully by then my hotel registration will have gone through. Hopefully.

06/08/2013 Heroic

Just a mindset of things that have happened as of late. I'm sitting on my lazy ass being un-productive. Yes Un-productive. Granted I did sort and do half of my massive stack of laundry today so thats something right?

Work soon which means I must get dressed. And fresh clean clothes will surely help with my moral.

mmm fresh clean clothes :)

06/06/2013 Resting Again

It's a day of mellowing out and not sleeping properly. And tomorrow will begin a day of cleaning and more cleaning and yet more cleaning :(

I honestly haven't been feeling too good of late. Possible food poisoning or maybe it's because I haven't eaten any fruits/veges in a good week or so... And it's getting late and I don't want to spend any money so I'll probably just end up fixing something that I have in the fridge again.

Maybe a warm bowl of miso? That's a relatively safe meal no? A hot soup with a bit of kombu sliced in and some silken tofu on the side floating around for good measure.

If not I could just stirfry the porkchops I have in the fridge as well. I think I can add something to make it nice...

Ugh choices.

06/05/2013 Obligatory Birthday Post

I'm a year older.

In the crazy scheme of things, I'm smarter, wiser and for the most part, more charming.

I sit at my computer as always and while I'm not likely to have done anything productive for this particular day in question, I can't help but think that I have actually gained something. And by something I mean a few pounds.

Meh. I'm a bit overweight and I know it. One of those life goals I can hope to change right?

It's something.

In other news my two boys are being as bastardly as ever. They sit on my bed and plead most pitifully because their catfood bowls are only 45% filled.

I take pity on them and feed them their evening meal. I wanna sleep some more.

In another life I suppose I may have been a house cat. And just did as I pleased for my own entertainment. But in this one I have the power of being a human and I choose not to do much with it. Is that a sign I'm just a lazy braggart? Or maybe more sinister things are at play here.

Hm...

Ah well. TO SHOWER!

06/04/2013 Prep

In a few hours this one will age again.

Twenty Four times around the sun hm?

I'm old again. Older. And that's something.

I really wish I had someone special to share this day with. I know I won't but that doesn't stop me from wishing I did have someone here for me for this day.

I think I'll spend much of the day simply sitting here counting the number of people who have wished me a happy one. And by that number quantify my abject popularity and amount of how much I am loved.

Stupid shenanigans but still.

06/03/2013 Monday?

Well damn it's Monday isn't it.

Looks like I'm in for a ride this week. With any luck everything will work out as I want it to.

06/02/2013 So Soon?

It's Sunday again. I'm sitting on my butt waiting for the day to be over.

Day/Night.

Work again soon. But clean freshly dryed laundry to put on my back and against my overwieght ass.

So yes It is a good day. And I will have a great night.

And now to get my butt to work :)

06/01/2013 4 days till my birthday

A new month! And yes Birthday soon.

It's Wednesday this year. Which of course means it is on a horrible day that has me in the middle of my week.

Ah well I'll be better off in a day or so.

Have Tuesday off.