1. Ugh I think I've gotten a case of food poisoning. My gut is suffering ever so at the moment :( Which of course doesn't particularly help the sleep deprivation I seem to be feeling as I progress later and later into the night.
2. I met a nice guy. I'll leave his name as R. for the time being.
As for the former, I'm attempting to stay hydrated between bouts of nausea and an energy sapping tap that is touching me in all the wrong ways.
As for the latter. I think he genuinely likes me as well. We had dinner at Sonic's the other day and if nothing else I think we connected pretty well. Personality wise he seems to be a bit on the submissive side. I'm not going to lie, but I'm drawn to him for some reason. One that I would really like to find out soon.
Maybe it's just the smile. It's a charming mix of smug without the reluctance that I've thusly noted in so many other people.
And he does fit my racial mixup that I'm fond of. (Yes I'm going to admit that I have a thing for White and/or Hispanic guys) He has a Spanish like tinge that reminds me of Adri. But I'm not really sure besides that small point. It could just be me over-reading and getting into thinking of things that were never there.
It could also just be the small fact that we've both been looking for someone to offer our affections to. I gave him mine and he has thusly returned with his.
A relationship can't be purely based on just affection of course. There being many social, economic, societal and possibly political factors at play during any given interaction.
Socially speaking, R. and I are similar. We have similar interests in both people and cliques as well as romantically realized dreams of a "good time." Which isn't to say that we don't have our differences thus far. Time of course seems to be the most awkward of the set as to what we both don't seem to have enough of.
Though I must happily note that we live close... And may soon yet live closer. I'd be more than happy to spend time with him if we lived in the same city... A casual dinner one evening. Or say some snuggles while watching the moon rise. OOOO or just a romantic time walking with the other. *le sigh*
Forever the Hopeless Romantic that I am... I can't help but think that R. is the solution to my loneliness. Which is of course a horrible... ABSOLUTELY horrible way of looking at anything. The world included. Though i'm not going to lie. I would love for him to fill that void within me. Ever since Kyle savaged my emotional health, I've been trying desperately to fill it with something.
Maybe I'm just over analyzing again. I'll try to keep it slow. This old haggard of a beast should learn to be more cautious with his heart. There's little point in letting one's self be hurt if there be an alternative; no?
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