In case your computer isn't rendering the characters, the Chinese characters translate to eat bitterness. It's a proverbial phrase that's supposed to mean something special obviously. Which isn't to say that the world is that much better or worse just because I'm coming up with wordings to use.
Instead I'll consider this a phrase that will make meaning to my present day. At the present my life isn't all that great. It's a chain of repetitive motions and generally hating things that are presently happening. It's one of those mind boggling statuses and mind processes.
I'm not saying I'm not to blame. I'm quite to blame for a lot of the shit to work.
Which of course is to rationally make sense that I then am the solution if I was at first the issue.
And I do believe I have a cure for it all. I have to suck up through the pains and trauma and be myself.
In that respect I'm going to try and get into grad school again. Just a MBA. It'll help me down the road no? I'll have ample time to volunteer some more, join various student organizations, get a student job again (maybe I'll be an RA this time around and be awesome and be like LETS TALK ABOUT OUR FEELINGS!)
My biggest wish is that UCF will accept me. It'll give a chance to live closer to my friends in the area, and get into a school that is not only accredited, but generally quite awesome. I'm going to rewrite my life in believable lies if I have to, to make this work.
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