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| Yep this awesome dude |
Anyway he's really really important for reasons that I don't really understand. So instead I'll comment about how awesome he was as a person. Fred Rogers was a pretty interesting person from what I can remember of his Wikipedia page. Yes I could totally open a new tap, skim over it for a moment and suddenly have regurgitate-able information to slam onto my page.
But yeah. This guy. He's in my dreams once in a blue moon. But when he visits. I am at peace. No seriously I am at PEACE. The stars align just right and the rage within my chest simmers down and boils away.
At the present, I want him to visit my dreams again. So we can either talk or I can just have someone non-judgemental to listen. Yes I'm wishing that the reflection of a deceased children's TV show host visits my dreams so that I may have a counseling session with them. No I'm not really that crazy.
You see. I just hurt inside still. Part of me really really regrets allowing myself to be in a position that caused the compromise of my relationship with my ex. Part of me just wants to move forward and stop hoping that I might get him back. Yeah my multiple sides are ripping my sanity apart. It doesn't do good for this one's mind or soul.
Indeed I'm hurting deep inside. It's almost like one of Rhianna's songs. And as I think about it, my mind and general mental status is pretty fucked up. Or maybe I'm just hurting.
I wake up sometimes and think that it was all a bad dream. And that I have someone I can call my own still. Yeah I miss him that much :(
That is a decently good reason why I want Mr. Rogers to visit me in my dreams. If nothing else he'll have the _end coding needed to stop that script from looping.
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